The Art of Losing

在我还不想改掉“不愿意一个人进电影院”的习惯之前，多亏我身边有一个暂时还是无限量提供我电影的人

Still Alice 是最近自己静静的看这部戏，自己静静的感动。

Moore is Alice, a popular, much-respected 50-year-old linguistics professor at Columbia who lives happily with husband Alec Baldwin, also a neuro-specialist, of sorts. They've three grownup children. But small acts of forgetfulness lead her to seek medical help, fearing cancer. The diagnosis of early-onset Alzheimer's takes them both aback; likewise the news that it's genetic, and likely to be passed on to their children.

有一天，一如往常出门跑步去，竟然发现自己在最熟悉不过的跑步路线，忘记了回家的路。
而开始发现自己的病，去面对。过程中，她女儿问她：那到底是什么样的一个感觉？

“Umm, well, I do have some good days, some bad days. in my good days. Before this, I was so defined by my intellect, my  language, my articulation, but now, I just lost of myself. Sometimes I see the words hanging in front of me but I just can't reach it."

大致上是一个这样的回答。心被轻轻敲了一下，如果是我，我会如何接受自己一天一点，慢慢的忘记身边的人事物，慢慢地做不到曾经熟悉的事情，慢慢地不会自理，慢慢的失去语言的运用能力，没有了思考能力，但是身体却好好的。她为自己录制了如何自杀的影片，她重复看了好多次，却连简单地“跟着做”这件事也做不到。

当然，这当中，忘记-也带来美好的时刻，因为忘记，更能享受最纯粹的快乐。

"We are not suffering, but struggling to live in every simple joy of life"

Sometimes, when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. You've just passing it on to someone else. --Mitch Albom